running: the dawn

on hold

It pretty much feels like all of my aspirations about getting my fitness back are completely on hold.  And the saga of pain continues…

As an update, I have switched physical therapists to one that specializes in women’s care and postpartum recovery.  The first time I went to go see her it was amazing.  She immediately diagnosed the dual problems that I’m having: misalignment and inflammation.  I was really impressed because she was able to manipulate me and reduce the presence of pain immediately!  That had never happened before.  The other 6 times that I had been to PT about theses same issues there was nothing they did that had any impact on the pain.

After that initial appointment my pain intensified dramatically.  Which brings me to now.  I’m taking a round of oral steroids in hopes that it will reduce the inflammation, allow me to stay in alignment, and ultimately fix all my problems.  It’s day two of the six day treatment, and I will admit that I feel different.  The pain is probably just as intense, but it feels very different.  Before it was just dull aching, sometimes burning pain starting at my tailbone and traveling all the way down to my achilles.  Now, it’s more centralized in my back and I can almost feel the bones shifting out of alignment.  It’s pretty gnarly.

So…I go back again on Monday.  Until then I’m supposed to keep avoiding the things that aggravate the nerve.  Which is mainly sitting.  Do you know how hard it is to have an 11-week-old and try to avoid sitting down?  Nursing standing up is my favorite.  I’m hoping that this will produce majorly ripped arms :)  Good thing this little guy is totally worth it!!!
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Disney Wine and Dine Half Marathon 2012

I’m almost completely caught up with retelling my races from the past year!  Only one more after this one.

Ok, so I know when I ran the Disney Princess Half Marathon, I said that I probably wouldn’t pay for another Disney race.  Well….of course I did…when I found out that the Wine and Dine was a night race and a whole bunch of friends from work were planning on running it, I just couldn’t resist.  It was literally the last day before the price went up, I had already gotten in bed for the night and at 11:30 remembered that I HAD to register before midnight or I wouldn’t be able to justify the price.  So I jumped out of bed and quickly forked over the electronic cash.  banner[1]

And approximately 24 hours later learned that I was pregnant.  OK, so maybe it wasn’t that dramatic…but I’m pretty sure it was within a week.  I went from, “Sweet–a fall half marathon, I’m totally going to go for a PR!!!” to, “Well, it’s a Disney race, I know…I’ll find some friends and stop to take pictures with all the characters!” So that’s what I did.

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My friend Dave said that he would run with me to keep me company and call the ambulance if I went into labor.  By the time the race rolled around I was 26 weeks pregnant!  I was able to run fairly consistently leading up to the race, a couple short runs during the week and a longer-ish run on the weekends.  I only ran one 10 mile long run, which is way off my normal routine.  Good thing I was running just for fun!

It’s a very weird thing to be lining up to start a race at 10:00 at night.  Normally that would mean that I’d be done running just before midnight, but with my added passenger, I knew that it would take a lot longer.  I would be running into the wee hours of the morning.  I made a couple mistakes for my first night run…I didn’t think through my pre-race fueling.  I had a huge lunch that included “haystacks” (a do-it-yourself taco salad) and then all but skipped dinner.  I tried to drink some Gatorade before the race but it didn’t help much.  By mile 3 I was already dealing with some severe burping.

Luckily Dave and I stopped to take pictures with all the characters.  My favorite?  DARTH VADER!  Now that Disney owns Star Wars, he’s part of the family :) !

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It was super fun to be pregnant at a race.  People were so supportive!  I actually met another girl that was preggers…she wasn’t showing at all and was only 12 weeks along but it was fun to chat about all the quirks that come with growing a human.

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This ended up being one of the funnest half marathons I’ve ever run!  I liked the course WAY better than the princess half and running through the parks at night was so magical.  For this race we started at ESPN’s Wide World of Sports, ran through Animal Kingdom and Hollywood studios, ran around the lake and past some really impressive condos, and ended at Epcot.  The parks were already all decorated for Christmas and it was spectacular!  Especially Hollywood Studios…there was one section where the street was lined with building entirely covered with lights.  I can’t even describe it.  We literally stood there and admired/photographed it for a full five minutes (the bonus of racing for fun!).

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My favorite part of the whole run was right near the end.  We were in Epcot and we rounded one corner and there was a laser light show going on right over our heads!  They were using a smoke machine to create just enough smoke so that the lights would form a kind of ceiling down the road. It was indescribably AWESOME!  There was loud music playing and we just got completely caught up in it.

My official finish time was over 3 hours, but it was seriously one of the most fun races that I’ve ever done.

Oh, and the girl from work that talked me into signing up in the first place, ran her first half marathon in under 2 hours!  Way to be Stephanie!!!

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on being a mom

Prelude: I still have some major sciatic pain.  No running.  No exercise of any kind.  Lots of tears.  Trying to not spread my doom and gloom, so let us move on, shall we?

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I want to talk about being/becoming a mom.

I know I’m about a week early, Mother’s Day isn’t until next week.  But…Mother’s Day is for seasoned pros.  Those who have been in the trenches and have come out the other side.  The ones that have battle scars to be celebrated and medals of bravery to be awarded.  I don’t feel I’m in that crowd.  I’m just a newb, all wide-eyed and clueless.  I’m not ready to be “appreciated” for all the “sacrifices” that mom’s are always thanked for on Mother’s Day.  I haven’t made any sacrifices.  I haven’t endured the really hard stuff of being a mom yet.

Right now, I’m just in awe.  I can’t believe that I get to be a mom.  I get to be mom to this little dude.

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I feel privileged.  That’s the only way I know how to describe it. I get to know GT.  I get to watch him grow up and become himself.  I get to witness his life in a way that no one else does.  I know that people talk about how their moms shaped them…I’m not so focused on shaping him than I am interested in keeping up with him and seeing him take shape.  I get to love him unconditionally.  I get to support him and encourage him.

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I can’t wait until he understands words so that he can hear me say that I believe in him.

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I’m full of questions that I can’t wait to find the answers to.  Will he sing?  Will he love to draw?  Which sports will he play?  Is he going to like running like me?  Or HATE it like Mr. Dawn?  Is he going to be good at math?  Or a history buff?

Learning about him is my full time job.  And I can’t wait to go to work every single day!

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He’s a whole little person discovering the world around him and I get to be there with him.  I’m pretty sure that knowing him is going to be the most exciting ride of my life.

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AND?!?  To top it all off…I get to experience this with the most wonderful husband in the world.  Watching Mr. Dawn turn into a dad has been all kinds of magical.  He treasures every moment that he gets with GT from playtime and music time to bath time and bedtime.

So, for Mother’s Day?  I just want to spend the day with my two guys, getting to know them better and falling more in love.

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out and about

 

Whew.  What a day!  Do you ever set out with some fairly straight-forward plans and then just keep adding on until you find yourself at the end of the day exhausted and wondering what just happened?  No?  Just me?  Well, let me tell you about it.

This morning I was scheduled for another round of PT (that’s the third one this week if anyone is counting…) at 6:00am.  Yup.  I figured I’m usually up close to that time anyway so I might as well make it happen.  So, of course GT chooses last night to be one of epic sleep.  When I was setting my alarm for 5:00, I thought to myself, “I don’t even know why I’m bothering, I’m always up around 4:30 to feed the little dude.”  Imagine my surprise when the next thing I heard was the sound of my alarm.  WHA?!? Did I really just sleep that long?  Like a robot I stumbled over to the nursery to begin the morning feast….but he was still asleep.  Like soundly.  No movement.  No grunting.

I did check to see if he was still breathing–he was–and headed out the door to PT.

I had decided to head into the office where I work to have lunch and show of my little bundle of joy.  Like a little angel he fell asleep as soon as we got there and slept through over an hour of me wandering around, seeing friends, and catching up on the latest.  He woke up just in time to enjoy lunch with my parents and my friend KRSTFR.

Did anyone know that today was bring your kids to work day?  Me either!  But that worked out pretty well, huh?  KRSTFR tried to claim him….

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Not sure how GT feels about it.

Have I ever told you how I feel about birds?  Specifically ones that insist on standing in the middle of the road blocking traffic.  Well, I’m not a fan.  I’m pretty sure that is an understatement.  They make me very angry.  And ever since I moved down here to Florida I have discovered that I pretty much hate all birds.  Sand Hill Cranes are on the top of that list.  They drive me crazy.

So, imagine my delight as I was leaving work and got held up by this little guy. Gross.

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From there I decided to stop by Babies R Us to make good use of a gift card we still have.  You see, I have a giant, monster baby.  He is almost 9 weeks old and is already wearing 6 month clothes and while we have an abundance of onesies that fit we have almost no pants.  Sure, at home he only wears onesies and sometimes, not even that.  But when we venture out into public he should probably be clothed more properly.

Then we headed to grandma and grandpas.

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And finally headed home.

Remember how he’s a monster baby?  I’m pretty sure that he’s outgrowing all of his baby toys already.

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Meanwhile I am discovering that Mr. Dawn is a complete baby whisperer.  I seriously should rent him out to calm and lull babies to sleep.  He has legit magical powers.

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pt and the pool

Another day…another visit with my friendly neighborhood PT.

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And, bless their hearts, they really are trying to fix what’s wrong with me.  They’ve been able to identify all my problem areas–good.  But they can’t figure out the cause or the culprit–not good.  We’re pretty much playing “chicken and egg” because is it the muscle spasms that are causing the misalignment, or is it being out of alignment that is causing the muscles spasm?  We DO know that the nerve is being pinched in a major way.  Meanwhile I have another appointment tomorrow.  Three in one week?  Awesome.

Since I saw a different lady today I thought I would ask her opinion on my run/don’t run situation.  She a-little-too-quickly voted that I don’t run.  Booooooo!  So, instead of wallowing in my sadness, I decided to head on over to my parents’ house and kick it in the pool.  I swam around a bit, chatted with my dad and then put GT down for a nap.  This is how mom’s enjoy a sunny day at the pool: video monitors :) !

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After his nap, it was playtime with Gramps!

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We enticed Grandma home by sending her pictures of all the fun we were having.  She got there just in time to get some love and hugs before it was time to head on home.

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I’m super glad that I spent some time in the pool.  The alternative was to lay at home and wallow in my exercise-less depression.  Instead I enjoyed a little fun in the sun and the therapy that only family can provide.  Success!

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Disney Princess Half Marathon 2012

I’m still working on catching up with all the races that I ran during my blog hiatus….

I will start by saying that everything that people say about Disney races is SO TRUE.  They are amazing events.  Are the worth the huge price tag?  Yes and No.  I mean, I’m super glad that I ran the princess, but I probably won’t do it again unless I’m running with a group of friends.  I think that’s what my big take away was.  I ran solo…and it just wasn’t as fun.  I don’t think that it’s a race I would ever run to try to get a specific goal time, its more geared toward being a fun run.  Costumes.  Friends.  Laughter. Pictures.  That’s what the Disney races are all about.  So, running it by myself having not trained very well…wasn’t the best idea.

But lets get to the race, shall we?

I’ve never dressed up in a costume, and frankly I’m pretty bad at costumes in general, so I didn’t quite know what I wanted to do for the Princess.  I do love Disney princesses, and I wanted to be supportive of the atmosphere…so I decided to go as Belle.  As my own little “twist” I decided to go as pre-princess Belle.  Not sure what that means?  Here you go…

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Basically blue with a white apron.  Easy, right?  Well I ended up having to explain it about a million times.  ”I’m Belle…” “You know, before she was a princess.”  ”Yea, remember…blue dress?  white…oh nevermind…”  I totally just looked like I was wearing a racing bib with no numbers around my running skirt.  Oh well.

Disney races start early.  Like crazy early.  I actually missed my alarm and would have probably slept through the whole race if my parents weren’t visiting and came knocking on my door at 3:30am.  I rushed to get dressed and headed out the door.  I actually put my socks, shoes, arm warmers, garmin, and belt on once I got in the car :) .

Since it was so early, it was stupid cold.  I hadn’t brought a jacket so my mom lent me her’s while we waited in the start line “village.”

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After some super fun pre-race entertainment hosted by the Fairy Godmother (of course) we headed en mass to the starting line.  It was a little bit of a walk, but since I had to surrender up the warmth of my jacket, I appreciated the opportunity to get the muscles moving and a little warm.

 

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Waiting at the starting line was actually super fun.  I didn’t know anyone and I hadn’t come with a group, so I just wandered around admiring everyone’s creative costumes.  I met a couple people from out of town.  It was so fun to be surrounded by so many women!  There was a LOT of girl power.

I didn’t know much about the course going into the race, except that we would be running through Cinderella’s Castle.  I was pretty excited about that.

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I knew that I wasn’t going to get any sort of PR for this race.  It was just a few weeks after I had run the Melbourne Marathon, and I still wasn’t training all that consistently.  So I just ran and tried to enjoy myself.

 

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At some point in time, I realized that if I pushed it just a bit at the end I would be able to get under 1:55.

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I officially finished with 1:53.54.  Not great, but it wasn’t horrible.  And I had a really fun time running through all the parks.

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The post-race goodies were really great!  They handed out boxes full of different samples including hummus and crackers.  I’m always craving tons of salt when I’m done running so that really hit the spot.

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My absolute favorite part?  The sparkly medal!

For some reason…when I registered they didn’t ask me which princess I wanted to be…so by default I was Rapunzel.  Lame.

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true confession

I am a little depressed.

Not so much a psychological depression.  More like a physiological one.

My sciatic nerve pain has been getting worse, rather than better.  Last Friday I had another PT session.  This was the third one.  The first two hadn’t really made a difference.  It still hurt pretty bad all of the time.  More when I was sitting down, but there was a dull ache almost all the time.  She decided to do some soft tissue release in my leg since working my back/glute area she hadn’t found any problems.

Well….let me tell you.  She struck gold.  Huge rock-hard-knotted-muscle gold.

My hamstrings are as she described as “ridiculously tight.”

She worked on them Friday and then ordered me to not do any exercising over the weekend so that we could reassess on Monday.  I followed her instructions diligently even though there was some pretty awesome running weather over the weekend.

Then Monday came.  I went back to face more torture.  Here are some quotes from my physical therapist:

Wow, it feels like there are rocks in there.

If I didn’t know better, I’d swear this was bone.

I usually see this kind of thing with someone who has had an injury.  If I had just put my hands on, I would say that you’d probably been kicked in the hamstring by a horse.

Awesome!  So, I’m scheduled to go see a different PT tomorrow, someone that has a background in orthopedics.

I’m just so frustrated.  I’ve been so excited to be finally starting to feel like my active self again and then I immediately get sidelined.  Today I stayed inside almost all day.  Pretty much everything that I do hurts, which makes taking care of GT even more difficult.  It hurts when I hold him to nurse, when I sit with him on the floor, when I hold him in my lap.  Pretty much always.

In better news…

GT two months old

 

Our little dude turned 2 months yesterday!  We had a Dr. appointment and his official stats are: 14lbs, 5oz and 25.5 inches.  Yes, he’s a monster baby.  I posted this picture on Facebook today and everyone has been comparing their 4-month-olds height and weight to my 2-month-old.  And yes, he’s bigger than everyone.

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week 7 update

 

 

 

 

I have been meaning to post this update all week long.  I really want to track and record my weekly progress.  It has been a little discouraging so far feeling like it’s going to take forever to loose the baby weight.  I figured that if I reflect on it every week I will stay more accountable and maybe (just maybe) will be encouraged when I can see the progress.

So here I am 7 weeks postpartum.

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I’m not entirely sure what my other stats are…I think I’m still hovering right around 150 lbs.  It’s pretty hard to weigh myself at a consistent time of day since nothing about my life is consistent these days.  So, sometimes I’m a little under 150 and sometimes a little over…sigh.

Here’s the comparison to last week.

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Here are my workouts from last week:

  • Monday: Jazzercise
  • Tuesday: Jazzercise
  • Wednesday: Jazzercise & 3 mile run
  • Thursday: Jazzercise & PT
  • Friday: Jazzercise

Total Miles: 3

OK, so my main goal for the weeks to come is to steadily increase my weekly mileage, strengthen my core, and try to get my sciatic pain under control.

Yesterday, I took GT outside for awhile to get some fresh air and tummy time.  3 minutes in the back yard and this is what we had, sleeping like an angel.

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unbelievable

 

Yesterday started out PERFECTLY.  I slept in a little (thank you GT!), hit up Jazzercise, and then got home just in time to curl up with the little dude and watch the best race on Earth.

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It was such a great race!  I had so much fun reminiscing about the year I got to be there.  I recognized every twist, turn, hill, and valley.

As soon as the men’s winner finished it was time to be “productive” and play with my little buddy.  Eventually he went down for a nap and I figured it was the perfect time for me to lay down as well.  Just as I was drifting off, I decided to put my phone on silence…but I needed to check facebook real quick.  And that’s when I saw the post from the Boston Marathon.  Bombs?  Are you serious?  I was no longer interested in napping.  Instead I started following all the news and trying to figure out what was going on.  People started texting and calling.  It was just unbelievable.

I can’t quite express myself regarding the tragedy.  It feels personal.  I was literally just there.  It could have been me.  Or Mr. Dawn.  Or GT.  My mind can’t even wrap around all of that.  I love running.  And I love Boston.  I just feel like it’s so wrong.  Why would someone attack a marathon?  Why would they target spectators?  I’m just sick.

So, today, I wore my jacket from two years ago.

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Then GT and I headed to the trail for a run to honor the spirit of the Boston Marathon.

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Thoughts and prayers go out to everyone that was there in person yesterday and for those there in spirit.  May we all heal and run on.

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memory lane

Today is the Boston Marathon.  The best marathon in the world.

Makes me all nostalgic.

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It seems like a lifetime ago…and maybe it was.  So much has happened in two years.

And now, I think about all the people out there running that fabulous race.  Some for the first time. Others have run it 5, 10, 15+ times.  Each running their own race, writing their own story.

Part of me wishes I could be there.

But I’m writing the next chapter of my story.  With my two favorite guys.

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Mr. Dawn and one-day-old GT

 

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