running: the dawn

As I’ve mentioned before, we are moving far far away.  In less than a month, Mr. Dawn is going to leave and start setting up our new home and then by the middle of June I will join him.

While we are deep in the middle of sorting, packing, tossing, and “repurposing” our entire house, I am also on a personal quest.  For me, every time I’ve moved (3 times in five years) its been an opportunity to rediscover who I am.  I moved to Vermont after college and discovered that I could make it on my own.  I was able to move to an unknown area with no friends or family and find meaningful community.  When I then moved to Kansas City after Mr. Dawn and I started dating I discovered that I don’t do well sitting behind a desk for 8 hours a day.  I need to be in a job where I can interact with people and build relationships.  When we moved up here three years ago I discovered how much I enjoy working on a University campus.  I love working for an organization that is committed to the future of our youth, our families, and ultimately our country.

So, now, I ask, what is this next move going to reveal to me about who I am?  How is my next job going to shape me as a person and as a professional?  I ask these questions while I’m filling out countless job applications, sending resumes, detailing my cover letters, and stalking job websites.  I have an undergraduate degree in math education and a master’s degree in organizational development.  Where will I work?  What will I do?  It might be teaching.  But it might not.  I have no idea.

Honestly, right now I don’t know how to balance the two sides of the coin.  I desperately want to find any job.  Having just bought a new car I feel somewhat urgent to be a financially contributing member of this family.  However, I’m terrified to be stuck in a job that I hate.  I have been in that situation several times in my life and there is nothing quite as soul-draining as a ill fitted job.

Here’s to new beginnings!