Prelude: I still have some major sciatic pain. No running. No exercise of any kind. Lots of tears. Trying to not spread my doom and gloom, so let us move on, shall we?
I want to talk about being/becoming a mom.
I know I’m about a week early, Mother’s Day isn’t until next week. But…Mother’s Day is for seasoned pros. Those who have been in the trenches and have come out the other side. The ones that have battle scars to be celebrated and medals of bravery to be awarded. I don’t feel I’m in that crowd. I’m just a newb, all wide-eyed and clueless. I’m not ready to be “appreciated” for all the “sacrifices” that mom’s are always thanked for on Mother’s Day. I haven’t made any sacrifices. I haven’t endured the really hard stuff of being a mom yet.
Right now, I’m just in awe. I can’t believe that I get to be a mom. I get to be mom to this little dude.
I feel privileged. That’s the only way I know how to describe it. I get to know GT. I get to watch him grow up and become himself. I get to witness his life in a way that no one else does. I know that people talk about how their moms shaped them…I’m not so focused on shaping him than I am interested in keeping up with him and seeing him take shape. I get to love him unconditionally. I get to support him and encourage him.
I can’t wait until he understands words so that he can hear me say that I believe in him.
I’m full of questions that I can’t wait to find the answers to. Will he sing? Will he love to draw? Which sports will he play? Is he going to like running like me? Or HATE it like Mr. Dawn? Is he going to be good at math? Or a history buff?
Learning about him is my full time job. And I can’t wait to go to work every single day!
He’s a whole little person discovering the world around him and I get to be there with him. I’m pretty sure that knowing him is going to be the most exciting ride of my life.
AND?!? To top it all off…I get to experience this with the most wonderful husband in the world. Watching Mr. Dawn turn into a dad has been all kinds of magical. He treasures every moment that he gets with GT from playtime and music time to bath time and bedtime.
So, for Mother’s Day? I just want to spend the day with my two guys, getting to know them better and falling more in love.