de ja vu

Ok, so I know that this post is going to feel a little repetitive.  And some people may even check the posting date since its going to feel like you’ve seen/heard all of this before.

My life is once again getting packing into boxes.  That’s right.  We’re moving.  AGAIN.

I must say that the last few weeks have been a whirlwind of changes and decisions.  Without getting into too much detail…Mr. Dawn has accepted a new job.  When we moved here to this job, we knew this would be a temporary situation.  We estimated our time here would probably be two years or less.  We didn’t ever imagine that it would have been this much less.  But, a job came to the table that is the PERFECT fit for who he is and what he wants to spend his life doing.  The one draw back is that the job is in a state that’s even farther south…so, that means we’ll be far away from family and sacrificing our winters.

That brings us back to packing tape, bubble wrap, multiple trips to the Uhaul store, and eating off of paper plates.  Ah, the joys of packing!

In the “good news” column…our new city gives me the opportunity to return to teaching Jazzercise!!!  There’s no guarantee that I’ll find a place that needs an instructor, but I’m excited about the potential :)  Like, really excited!

We are still ironing out the details of the move, but Mr. Dawn starts his job on August 15th.  Yes, that’s just over two weeks from now.  How insane are we?!?

what i do, since i don’t have a job…

As most of you know…I’ve been having a hard time finding employment since we moved.  Well.  I have found ways to keep busy.  Today, I made pillows.  Well, pillow covers.  For awhile, I’ve felt like our living room was just a little to drab.  Lots of dull colors all blending in together.

 

I’ve been trying to figure out what I wanted to do…which colors to use…what kind of fabric.  The only thing that I’ve learned is that I’m really not very good at the whole decorating thing.  I just can’t see where to put vases or art.  I’m horrible at deciding what kind of accent chair would look best.  In fact, we’ve gone without a table/ottoman for 3 years cause I just can’t figure out what would work best.

Well, I decided to just pick something and make it work.  I found three different fabrics.

 

The fun little twist is that the flower fabric is on one side of all the pillows (there’s 5 in all).  So, I can switch it up and have all flowers or some with flowers and some zebra or red.  I think it will make it more cheerful.  At least I hope so.  Now, I still need to decide on curtains, accessories, and pretty much everything else….sigh.

One step at a time….

the week’s end: week 3

I usually do my end of the week wrap up on Fridays, but this weekend I was gifted with a wonderful visit from my parents.  Which was WAY more fun than sitting down and typing out all my workouts from last week.  But I don’t want to forget… so here we go:

This week’s workouts:

Monday: 3 miles
Tuesday: 3 miles & Jazzercise
Wednesday: 5 miles
Thursday: 7 miles & Jazzercise
Friday: 3 miles

Total: 22 miles

Hurray for a successful week!  I’m so happy that I was able to get a run in every day.  Seriously, that hasn’t happened in FOREVER.

So, the truth is that I don’t actually have access to a real-life Jazzercise class.  Which means that I cheated.  I still have all of my old dvd’s from when I was an instructor (that’s how we all learn the routines :) ).  I just pop one in and dance up a sweat.  Full Disclosure: this is no where near as much fun as being in an actual class with friends, but it’s the only way I can get in some good cross training.  Especially since it was still 100+ degrees every. single. day.

Random Thought: I just saw an ipad commercial where someone was using it in place of a cookbook.  I’ve always dreamed of my perfect kitchen with some sort of snap-in device where I could mount my ipad (which I currently don’t own…but assume that I will someday…).  I actually do most (if not all) my cooking with my laptop propped on a near by shelf with the recipe from my favorite food blog (101cookbooks.com) on display.  Someday this will be a disaster.  I’m sure of it.

wins and losses

So, day three of my 5 days of running and I’ve been getting it done.  Just barely.  Today was definitely the hottest of the hot.  I could make it about a mile before I needed to take a little break in the shade.  And I figured since I wasn’t going to get the miles run straight through I’d go ahead and run five.  But it was more like intervals.  Run a mile.  Hide under a tree and pour half my water on my face.  Run another mile.

Since I haven’t shown you my new running digs, check it out:

About a mile from my front door I can be at a nice little bike path.  The only flaw is that it does not have that much shade, so I feel like I’m baking under the sun.  Even in the early mornings.  I will say that I feel much much more safe running on the sidewalks and bike paths here than I did on the country roads without a shoulder up north.  Not sure the trade off for 100+ degrees is really worth it though….

In SAD news.  My Garmin seems to have died.  At the beginning of the summer she was loosing her charge at an alarming rate and I was afraid that she was done for.  So I contacted Garmin Support and they walked me through a reset/software update which temporarily fixed the problem.  But on yesterday’s run she quit after a mile and today (after being fully charged overnight) she beeped her last at 1.5 miles.

So, I’m sending her in.  Its actually a little bit past the one year warranty, but because Garmin is an AWESOME company they are taking care of me and sending me a replacement without charge.  But I am sad.  She has served me so well!

her first day as a part of our family

Getting me to my sub-four hour marathon:

San Diego RnR 2010

 

Qualifying me for Boston:

Grand Rapids 2010

Running the world’s best race with me:

And now.  She’s gone.

Sure, I’ll get another device.  I’m sure that it will work perfectly.  I may even learn to love the replacement.  But it won’t understand where I’ve been.  It hasn’t been through the fight with me.  I am sad.

a new week a new goal

Ok, so it’s Monday.  I’ve decide to set a goal for myself for this week.

I want to run five days in a row.  In the morning.  Outside.  A minimum of 3 miles, hopefully more.

That sounds like nothing, right?  Well…

Seriously?  [deep breath] I believe that if I can find a way to run consistently I will have won the battle.  I need to be OK with slogging through some horrible runs.  I need to just get out and make it happen.  Its a choice, right?  My choice.  And I choose to run.  Or at least I did today.  And I hope to choose it again tomorrow….

a run!

Hurray!  So, I’ve decided that it’s time for me to start celebrating each little success in my journey back.  And today…I celebrate my run.  I was able to wake up and start my run first thing this morning.  AND, because I ran on my treadmill, I was able to get three loads of laundry done :)  Huzzah.

The plan: run while watching an episode of Friends.

Hop off to switch out the laundry.  Start a new episode.  Hop back on.

Worked perfectly :)

the week’s end: week 1

During my training for Boston this spring, I got away from recording my weekly workouts, and I’m not entirely sure why.  I do know that once I stopped looking at my week’s accomplishments, I lost quite a bit of motivation to complete my scheduled workouts and hit my short-term targets.

So, I’m back with my weekly fitness recaps.  It’s a bit strange, however, because I’m usually counting down to some race …and right now…I’m just running.  Without a goal.  Which has been WAY harder than I anticipated.  I guess for now, I’m just going to count up.  Starting now.  The first week of July.  We’ll see where I end up down the road…

This week’s workouts.  Ok, so this is where I’m going to have to brace myself…cause my mileage and commitment levels are so low that I’m feeling really embarrassed by my lack of activity.  But, I have to start somewhere right?  So, here goes nothing….

  • Monday– at the lake…does bobbing in the water, holding on to a fun noodle count as working out?
  • Tuesday–driving back from the lake…
  • Wednesday–5 miles
  • Thursday–nothing, no excuse, just didn’t get out and run.  I did set up my treadmill, as though I was going to run…I’m guessing that’s in the same category as the fun noodles…
  • Friday–5 miles
Total: 10 (measly) miles
Seriously.  I just broke my own heart.  The running here has been hard.  I’m sure that it would be 100% better if I could just get myself out of bed early enough to run before it gets too hot.  But, without a job to go to, I haven’t been able to find the discipline.  So my runs have been 8, 9, or 10 in the morning and it’s miserably hot.  When I go at 8, I’m able to take advantage of a little more shade from the trees than if I go later in the day.
Oh well.  It is what it is.  And now I have an automatic goal: to beat my mileage from this week!  Hurray!  I literally LIVE for goals.  I feel a physical difference in every cell of my body when I am working towards a goal.  And until I find a race to put on my calendar, this will have to do.

in search of home

Ok, so I know that it’s been WAY WAY WAY too long.  Honestly, when I try to think of why I’ve been away from blogging for so long, I don’t really have a good reason.  I mean at first there were a few days of packing.  Mr. Dawn loaded the truck and drove away with our house-full of belongings and I moved in with a friend to finish out the school year.  Then the big “it’s finals week and I can’t believe how much grading I have to do!!”  Another couple weeks of cleaning my classroom, finishing my grades, and making final preparations to say good bye to our little house…

Then I got in my car and headed out of town for the last time.  There may have been tears.  I didn’t realize how hard it was going to be to drive away from what had been such a happy time in our lives.

Maybe I’ve been avoiding writing, because I wasn’t ready to process.  I didn’t want to have to admit, out loud, that a chapter of my life has really ended.  It was soothing to me to have a feeling of “dot-dot-dot” (any bachelorette fans out there?) with my life up north.  Like I was going to be back to running my old familiar routes in no time.  Apparently, I’m having a hard time moving on.

   

In addition to that, I’ve had a hard time knowing how to write about my “new” life.  I’ve been in our new house–the cottage–for a little over three weeks now.  I have plenty of time to write, but still I’ve chosen not to.  At first I was unpacking and trying to find places for all of our stuff in a house that is 2 rooms smaller than our last place.  An ongoing project is my resume, application, look for a job extravaganza.  I’ve been overwhelmed by 10 or so days of weather over 100 degrees (110 is the hottest…so far…).  I’ve run.  I’ve cooked.  I’ve found running routes.  I planted flowers.

All in an attempt to find the home that I hope to make here.  I don’t feel like I’m there yet, but its getting better.

This weekend we met up with my parents for the holidays (yay for living 3.5 hours away rather than 10+).  It was a great time at the lake: swimming, grilling, playing games, watching movies.  And yesterday, as we were driving into our little neighborhood, I felt it.  That warm feeling of being in familiar territory.  Of coming home.

Now, I’m still not sure I’m “there” yet.  We still have many days to go before I feel fully integrated into life here, but I do feel like I’m making strides.  Which I guess makes me feel safe to start writing again…

It would be really easy for me to say that I’ve been busy, stressed, etc and couldn’t write.  But the truth is, I’ve had time.  I just didn’t trust myself to find words to share.  And I didn’t like the words that came to mind.  I’ve been searching.  Searching for home.  Searching for myself–here.  But I guess now I’m ready to share that journey.  I’m ready to start processing out loud (or in written form, whateve’s).  Thanks for sticking with me through the un-planned blog sabbatical :)

Kalamazoo Half Marathon 2011

Cliff’s Notes Version:  Awesome race, a few hills, perfect weather, sore feet, squeaking in under the wire, 2nd best half marathon time.

Race Rating: A

My results: 13.1 miles/1:49.55/8:23 per mile

The long version:

I ended up staying with friends since the drive would have been over an hour, I don’t have our GPS, and I’m pretty sure that I wouldn’t have made it to the starting line.  It was really fun to go to a race with other people who are running!  My friend and her mom were running the 5k, and her dad, brother and brother’s girlfriend were all running the half.  It was the first race for everyone except T (she ran the Disney Marathon back in January).  We were up by 5 and out the door by 6am.

I was really impressed with the organization of the event, especially since it was the inaugural marathon.  We parked a few blocks from the start and took the provided shuttles to the start.  The start/finish line were located right next to a field that had morphed into “tent city”.  I’m still not sure I know exactly what all those tents were for…Running clubs?  Charities?  I guess.  I had no real interest in being in a tent.  In fact, I was really interested in the sun coming up as soon as possible.  It was a little chilly.

We stood around chatting.  Have you ever gone to a race with a newbie?  I don’t mean someone who has been training for a year and is fully immersed in running culture.  The brother and his girl were both running the half with zero training or preparation.  I mean, they’d both run at least 6 miles, and the girlfriend runs 6 miles pretty consistently.  But that’s it.  While we were standing there they asked about the people putting deodorant on their legs (body glide) and wondered why people need strange socks on their arms.  And why oh why were there so many people in trash bags.  It was really interesting to see runner’s culture through the eyes of new comers.

Soon enough it was time to head over to the starting area.  This was probably the only thing I can think about that could use some improvement.  I’m not sure if it was just because the starting line area was too narrow, or the pacers didn’t space themselves out properly, but it felt overcrowded and like everyone was trying to get closer to the starting line.  Meanwhile, I hadn’t brought a drop bag and was planning on just throwing away my shirt, but instead I tossed it under one of the finish line gatorade tables to see if it would still be there when I finished (spoiler–it was!).

Someone sang the national anthem and we were off!  It really was the perfect day to be out running.  High 40′s, sunny, a slight breeze.  After not listening to my ipod at Boston, I had decided that I would indulge myself and listen to my favorite running playlist.  So I cranked up the tunes and fell into what was a fairly easy pace.  My race place was very very casual.  Since I ran Boston in just over 4, I knew I’d like to stay under 2 hours.  If I was able to come in under 1:50 all the better.

But then I kept creeping down into the low 8′s.  In the back of my mind I knew I was in dangerous territory.  True, my half PR is 1:46 (8:08 pace) from about a year ago.  But I ran that while training for a marathon, which much MUCH higher mileage than I’ve been able to sustain lately.  I’ve had to accept that my endurance (and even my overall fitness) isn’t where I want it to be.  So, throwing down some 8:xx and even a 7:5x mile was writing checks that I knew I couldn’t cash.  But, I was having fun, running easy and rocking out with my jamz.  So I kept going.

One drawback to the course was the mile or so that we ran on cobblestones.  I remember thinking how uneasy I felt running on the uneven road.  Then, at the finish line, I discovered that a friend had actually fallen pretty hard on that section!  Scraped up her hands and knee pretty bad.  It just seemed hazardous.

Nicole had warned me that this course wasn’t necessarily easy, and to expect a killer hill at mile 7.  So, I tucked that away in the back of my mind trying to mentally prepare for the hills.  The course was actually pretty great.  There were enough turns to keep things interesting but not so many that I had to slow down.  I did naturally start to bring my pace back to the mid 8′s where I felt like it was much more sustainable.

Mile 7 came.  Mile 7 went.  No crazy hill.  I mean, there was an overpass kind of rise, but nothing too demoralizing.  I could quite decide if that meant the hill was gone, or if it was just at a different mile marker than last year.  Then.  Mile 8.5.  I saw what she’d warned me about.  There’s a 90-degree turn and you face a serious beast of a hill.  I mean BEAST.  At that point I was so thankful that I was wearing a hat so that I could just put my head down, look at the 3 feet of road directly in front of me and pump my arms.  The hill, while steep, really wasn’t that long.  Before I knew it I had crested the top and was only 4 miles from the finish line.

After that hill I slowed down significantly.  It took me awhile to get my breathing and my heart rate back under control.  I walked through a water station.  Then I decided it was time to finish this.  We got to run on several bike paths along rivers and around a lake.  It was just beautiful.

I must say, the support for this small town race was impressive. Seriously.  I’ve run more small town races than big city ones and so I’ve come to keep my spectator expectations to a minimum.  I was pleasantly surprised.  There were cowbells, radios blaring, gummy worms, bands rocking out.  It was awesome!

I’m pretty sure there was one more hill after the big one at 8.5.   I’m just not sure that I remember exactly where it was.  During the last two miles I started to get a burning sensation in my right foot.  Just under that ball of my foot it felt like I was walking on hot coals.  That’s never happened to me before.  I’ve had the “oh no I feel blisters forming” feeling and the “oops I think I just pulled something” feeling, but never the “are the soles of my shoes melting?” feeling….  I can’t decided what was going on, but I’m pretty sure that it means I need new shoes….

All during the last few miles I couldn’t figure out if I was going to come in under 1:50.  Part of me thought, “Oh yea!  I got this, I can throw down some solid 8 minute miles!”  And the other side whined, “Is it really that important? Lets just ease up a bit and be happy with whatever happens.”  So, I alternated between those two intentions.  I’d push it for a few paces and then I’d ease up again.  I’m sure I was super annoying to all the people running around me.

By the time I passed the sign for mile 26, and I knew that there was just a mere 0.2 miles left I still didn’t know if I’d be just under or just over 1:50.  My foot was burning and I was ready to be done running.  So I threw down the hammer and kicked it in pretty strong.  I totally missed T and her mom cheering right before the finisher’s chute.  I stopped my Garmin at exactly 1:49:59.  So I still wasn’t sure if my official time would be over or under 1:50.  Either way, I decided that I had run a good race and was happy with the outcome.

I grabbed a gatorade and drank the entire thing.  I wasn’t hungry at all, but I grabbed another gatorade and started looking around for the group I’d come with.  I was so happy because I was able to watch my student–YK–finish her first half marathon ever.  She’s a sophomore in high school and finished in 2:02!!!  That’s so awesome.  Neither of us had cameras, so we had to settle for bad cell phone pics.

The other news from the day?  The girlfriend (remember: first half marathon ever, never ran more than 6 miles) finished in 2:03!  And I’m pretty sure she’s hooked.  She had some pretty significant blisters and needs to go get fitted for a good pair of running shoes, but she’s already talking about finding another half to run before the end of the summer.  I love it when I get to be there when runners become racers :)

 

welcome spring!!!

I may seem a little late in my embrace of spring, but you have to understand what its like for those of us who live in the north…we don’t trust the spring.  One day it could be sunny and 70 and then in the blink of an eye there’s snow everywhere and the temperatures have plummeted.  I’m never sure when I can let my guard down and truly enjoy the warmer weather.

Well, the sign that I’ve been waiting for is here!

the water pumps are on!!!

That’s right!  The water is back on!!!!  It has been a long winter with no water stops along my route.  And now….I can fill up just a half a mile from my house.  Hurray!  So, I can enjoy it for the next three weeks.  Super.

I did get in an awesome couple of workouts this week.  AND on Tuesday I did my first double in a long time.  I got off work, hurried home to change, strapped on Gigi, and hit the open road.  I set out with the idea to do 10, but with the beautiful blue sky over head and a renewed joy of running I decided to do my favorite 12 mile loop.  Of course Gigi quit about 8 miles into the run and then decided to beep at me for the last 4…which was super fun.  As soon as I was done with the run, I changed clothes and headed to Jazzercise.  Which was awesome because we’re doing a boot-camp inspired month and this week has been focusing on upper torso.  So by the end of the day my legs were nice and sore and my arms felt like jello.  Oh, three hour sweat sessions, how I’ve missed you!!!

Before the garmin malfunction, I was throwing down some pretty fast miles.  Like faster than I’ve run in a while.  Makes me miss my speed a little bit.  Honestly, I do miss the intensity of following a rigorous training plan and pushing myself towards a seemingly impossible goal.  But, for now, I’ve decided no more full marathons this year.  I promised Mr. Dawn that the earliest I would think about running a full would be the Lincoln Marathon next spring.  It was my first full, and I’d love to train really hard and see how different it is to run on a familiar route.

So, that leaves me with a lot of time and space to fill.  It’s the perfect opportunity to run some shorter distances and run for fun.  Starting this weekend!  I’m heading to Kalamazoo to run the Half Marathon with my girls Nicole and Erika on Sunday.  Can’t wait.  It’s seriously been over a year since my last half marathon.  I don’t really know how its going to go.  I know that I won’t be setting any records, but I also kinda wonder what I’ll be able to do….

THEN.  Next weekend.  A 5k.  I know that I thought I was going to run one over Thanksgiving, but it turns out that was a trail race with no actual set distance.  (Strangest race ever.)  This is an actual 5k.  Which will be the first in 4 years (or something close to that).  I’m really looking forward to races that won’t destroy and consume my entire life :) .